Well, now it has been a while, hasn't it? For those that were patiently waiting for months on end for my weekly updates, I do apologize. You see, September I went to Disneyworld, spent time being a kid and paying too much for everything. I had fun, a lot of fun, but that meant little to no writing. In fact, I think I'm still on the same part of the story I was back in September. Then November hit, and I was doing NaNoWriMo, as most people know, which put a hold on my gaming writing. Then December, and I promised to get back to things, but like so many promises I make, I failed hardcore on following through. I also moved. The holidays hit, people spent time with family, I packed, then January came about and I moved nearly half-way around the world. Nearly. I, of course, had my handy-dandy-netbook to type all my stories and get cracking on finishing my gaming project, but that didn't happen. Instead I explored my new home. I made friends with gaming locals, I spent way more money than I should have on all sorts of gaming related things, and I picked up my little computer with intentions of getting back to work. Of course, that didn't happen. Well, it sort of did.
You see, I started polishing up the first segments that I wrote on here. I got to thinking, this is the most I've ever written on one story. It may not have been finished, but it was a lot and it wasn't half-bad. So I thought, "I want to publish this. I want this to be my first book." That, of course, required research, since it is technically fanfiction. What could and couldn't I do? What did I have to do in order to do what I wanted? The wonderful internet eventually gave me the answers, after days of combing through dozens of sites and compiling all the information I could on the subject. I contacted the people I needed to contact, and after a few weeks of e-mail exchange, I was denied. I'm not at all upset about the decision they made, I completely understand why and would have probably done the same if roles were reversed, but I was let down by the answer. Like a giant reject stamp had been thrown onto my tiny hope of getting my love of words out there.
Then I sulked. I sulked for a good month, perhaps longer. But in that time I started a new Pathfinder game, painted some miniatures, and played my go-to computer games. It was sometime in the second month of sulking that a friend reminded me that quitting is for losers, and you know what? It worked. I haven't gotten back on the saddle yet, so to speak, but at least I'm coming back around. There's much I want to finish, and even more that I want to start.
I definitely won't be posting weekly, it was quite difficult when I was doing it, and even then I barely made weekly postings... if I did at all. You know, I'm not sure if I ever did update on time. Whatever the case was, it won't be happening now. Now I will probably update once a month, maybe. I don't want to make any more promises. I actually lack a place I can sit at quietly and write. I gave up my writing desk with the move, and also gave up outlets with this place. Seriously, there's like two in the entirety of the living room. That's not many. And then there's also the case that I have things outside of writing about gaming I want to/am currently kicking around and/or working on. However, even with all these other circumstances, I think I can get back to finishing up the L5R game I have posted on here. It will get done. That I am certain of. When? That I'm not certain of.
Don't get your hopes up, but I'm on a mission to complete something before the year is over. I don't want to feel like I just let 2014 pass by without doing something amazing. As if 2014 and the 365 days it encompasses really matters when measuring my life instead of the whole of time I've existed. I don't know, there's just something about this year that is telling me I have to get my ass moving and do something.
